Pray for my strength

It has started as I have predicted....my mother is already screaming at me, telling me that I am selfish (this to her kid that has been there at least twice a week for the past 20 monhts). Telling me that I am self centered and that I need to put HER first! I spent all last night picking out readings and music for the service. I told her I would meet her at the funeral home, but that isn't good enough, I am supposed to go to her house and RIDE IN HER CAR....forget that it isn't convient, that I can't stand her driving on a good day and that I have to manage to somehow find time today or tomorrow to cloth 10 people for a funeral. I spent the entire afternoon with her yesterday when all she did was criticize how active the kids were, how messy my house was (which wasn't messy but did need that deep clean, but given that I had spent the previous 2 days with her at the hospital, I never got to), and how I needed to go on a diet.

God forbid I be angry with her. She has KNOWN he was dying for almost 2 years but didn't bother to go and pick out a cemetery plot. God forbid that she didn't involve her parish priest in the dying process, so that he has no idea who she is. God forbid that the church office be closed today in observance of the holiday. God forbid that she never discussed ANY of this with my father, my husband and I, 25 and 30 years their juniors, know what each other want.

So if you live in the SW region of Ohio or in NKY and you see a blurb for the news....daughter kills mother and you see police tape and a Union Township police cruiser in the background....stay tuned...and count your pennies, there is no way we have the $$ to bail me out of jail!

Enough of my venting......focus is going to be on my dad today!